Blogging It Up
Nice…

And now i just feel like crap. 

why? 

because i ended something perfect for something i thought was better.

and now im fucked because the thing i ended for has just been ruined. 

What is happening?

What is happening right now? God, i cant stop asking myself.

Im spilling out my love story to whoever is reading this. 

It all begins in 6th grade. The kid who always made fun of me told my best friend he liked me. We were both really popular, so everyone knew about his crush on me. I wasn’t interested at all. And i turned him down many times saying “I just want to be friends.” During the middle school years, we became the best of friends. I told him everything. He told me everything. We were considered the “should be a couple” best friends by everyone. Need I remind you, he’s still in love with me. Beginning of freshmen year in high school, I began to fall for him. But. He was my best friend. I couldn’t tell him; it would mess up our friendship. I knew he liked me. But then he got a girlfriend. “Im the happiest guy in the world” he would tell me. I knew he wasn’t though, he could be way happier. With me. But i wasn’t going to tell him that. I played along. Their relationship, as I called it, lasted a week. Nothing special. He was hurt. Then, came along this girl. Who had been interested in him for a while now. I told him “don’t do it, don’t give her the attention she wants. Don’t ask her out; she’s going to ruin your reputation.” As always, he ignored what i said. He asked her out. They broke up. Nothing special there either. A couple months passed. I realized I needed to tell him how i felt. I hinted it a lot; planning out how we would kiss for the first time, playing around with him of course. He finally got the message that I wanted him to be with me. He had told me he wanted to go out on a date with me. One day before 4th period, he told me “I need to talk to you at lunch” rather serious. I was still excited. He would finally ask me out on a date. Remember that girl he dated a while back? The one i told him would ruin his reputation? “I had sex. with her. and i regret it. and i wanted you to know before anything else happens between us. theres a rumor going around. She’s telling people. I didn’t want people knowing about it. I wanted to tell you myself.” I understood he wanted to tell me himself and why he did. But the boy I was in love with lost his virginity to someone he wasn’t even in love with. I let it go. It still bothers me. That little feeling that hides behind everything. A month after he told me this, we went to a party. I kissed him for the first time. The feeling was incredible. I couldn’t believe it. A couple weeks after the party, he asked me to be his. I was his girlfriend for 5 months. We broke up. We got back together, not officially, but we still acted like a couple. I guess I just couldn’t let him go; he couldn’t let me go either. Now comes the sad part. A couple days ago I told him we should move on. Why? Why did I say that? Because i realized we’re trapped. He needs to get out and enjoy life. We are arguing way too much. I don’t think its healthy. I don’t want to continue something that’s not advancing anymore. And now, now I’m realizing maybe everything was a mistake. I love what we have. What we had. How everything happened. I don’t regret a single thing. But maybe, just maybe, i should’ve waited a little longer to kiss him for the first time. Maybe I should’ve waited. Maybe if I gave everything a little more time, everything would be fine and dandy right now. And I guess that’s the lesson learned here. Don’t rush things. Because sometimes destiny has everything set up for you perfectly already. 

nythroughthelens:

Autumn in full swing. Central Park, New York City.
After nearly 6 weeks of dealing with a fairly intense leg injury, I was finally able to go out for the first time yesterday and walk around the way I normally do. I think I walked something like three miles in total! It felt incredible to not be limited in the way I was limited previously while dealing with the slow healing process. I ended up going to Central Park to soak in the remaining bits of autumn since autumn is so fleeting here in New York City.
I met up with a few other photographers from Google Plus later in the afternoon. Prior to meeting up with them I got to the park several hours earlier to go to my favorite sections of the park. I was still a little timid and apprehensive about doing a lot of walking even though I got the go-ahead from my doctor this past week to engage in my normal level of activity. Thankfully, I realized an hour into climbing around in piles of leaves (sometimes it’s fun to abandon the paved paths in Central Park especially when leaves are involved) that I was going to be just fine! The foliage was a bit past peak foliage but there were some genuinely magical landscapes.
It’s no secret that autumn is my favorite time of year. A while back I mentioned to people on Google Plus that I am saddened that autumn’s finest foliage only seems to grace us with its presence for a few weeks out of the year. Someone commented back to me that the short-lived nature of autumn is what makes it so special. Perhaps there is some truth to that notion. The fleeting transient nature of autumn does make it memorable.
There is a bittersweet quality to the action of capturing it in full splendor; giddy delight at experiencing something so magical mixed with sorrowful anxiety knowing that in a short time all of it will be only a preserved memory.
—-
View this photo larger and on black on my Google Plus page
—-
Buy “For Two - Autumn - Central Park - New York City” Posters and Prints here, View my store, email me, or ask for help.

nythroughthelens:

Autumn in full swing. Central Park, New York City.

After nearly 6 weeks of dealing with a fairly intense leg injury, I was finally able to go out for the first time yesterday and walk around the way I normally do. I think I walked something like three miles in total! It felt incredible to not be limited in the way I was limited previously while dealing with the slow healing process. I ended up going to Central Park to soak in the remaining bits of autumn since autumn is so fleeting here in New York City.

I met up with a few other photographers from Google Plus later in the afternoon. Prior to meeting up with them I got to the park several hours earlier to go to my favorite sections of the park. I was still a little timid and apprehensive about doing a lot of walking even though I got the go-ahead from my doctor this past week to engage in my normal level of activity. Thankfully, I realized an hour into climbing around in piles of leaves (sometimes it’s fun to abandon the paved paths in Central Park especially when leaves are involved) that I was going to be just fine! The foliage was a bit past peak foliage but there were some genuinely magical landscapes.

It’s no secret that autumn is my favorite time of year. A while back I mentioned to people on Google Plus that I am saddened that autumn’s finest foliage only seems to grace us with its presence for a few weeks out of the year. Someone commented back to me that the short-lived nature of autumn is what makes it so special. Perhaps there is some truth to that notion. The fleeting transient nature of autumn does make it memorable.

There is a bittersweet quality to the action of capturing it in full splendor; giddy delight at experiencing something so magical mixed with sorrowful anxiety knowing that in a short time all of it will be only a preserved memory.

—-

View this photo larger and on black on my Google Plus page

—-

Buy “For Two - Autumn - Central Park - New York City” Posters and Prints here, View my store, email me, or ask for help.

Winner

So after the most successful spirit week EVER, i am now sitting down on my laptop telling you about it, whoever you are. :p

Today was spirit day, and so i made the cutest t-shirt ever. And wore white jeans (since my class was supposed to wear all white.) I had the greatest day ever since during class, we didnt do anything. Butttt…. i got home to my mother being all upset because i got a 50 on my geometry test that i took a couple days ago. it wasnt my fault though. My teacher cant teach!!! you ask her a question and she doesnt know the answer. I guess sometimes parents just need to believe you when you say things. You know? It would make sense that i could be right, because my mom was a child a long time ago in a different country so listen to my opinion sometimes. I have a little bit of reason to have gotten a 50. I do believe its a mistake though. Since i did know more than half of the things on that test. My teacher’s just a… ugh.

:( :) :/ </3 

11-7-11- Here Goes… 
I have finally reached the end of a really bipolar day. 
First of all, it was Movie Monday at school for spirit week, so my best friends and i were Mean Girls. Now I’m getting ready for Twin Tuesday. and i had the most successful practice at gymnastics. But!!! Here comes the sad part…
My best friend is leaving to Texas, for 6 whole days!!! :(
Im gonna miss him so much! 

photojojo:

9 months of photography produces insanely adorable stop-motion … and baby!
9 Months of Stop Motion (by Don Rob)
via createinme

photojojo:

9 months of photography produces insanely adorable stop-motion … and baby!

9 Months of Stop Motion (by Don Rob)

via createinme

photojojo:

Check out this year’s winner of the Landscape Photographer of the Year Awards titled Winter Field, Stirlingshire, Scotland by Robert Fulton.
Winners of the Landscape Photographer of the Year Awards
via John Maloney; treeporn

photojojo:

Check out this year’s winner of the Landscape Photographer of the Year Awards titled Winter Field, Stirlingshire, Scotland by Robert Fulton.

Winners of the Landscape Photographer of the Year Awards

via John Maloneytreeporn

photojojo:

This is missing from our life!
Anyone know where it’s from?
via zenigata seen on 2chan.net [ExRare]

photojojo:

This is missing from our life!

Anyone know where it’s from?

via zenigata seen on 2chan.net [ExRare]